I am a SAHM

11 April 2011 marks the last day of my service in NTU after good 4 years. I must admit that I have very nice and great colleagues since i joined the workforce. The first permanent job was in Pioneer Sector Road and i was working in a very small office. We are always able to leave on time without needing to work OT unless there is a big shipment from other department which requires our assistance, but only for less than 1 week in a year. Working OT with the gals is also considered a chitchat session to know more about one another. I have to leave the company a year later 'cos of the overseas posting of hubby's job. NTU is my 2nd permanent job after returning from france. Similarly, i am lucky enough to work with nice colleagues in our department. Now i am starting to miss them already!

It's about 3 weeks since i am a SAHM. Am really busier than working lor..I am working only 8hrs at work but 24hrs at home. It is really rather tiring but i am happy with looking after the small one. Her smile dissolves all the tiredness and grumblings in me. What a cutie pie, haa..

On the other hand, i do have second thoughts at times. Did i make the right choice? Definitely i love to see my daughter grow and well nurtured, and i have no qualms about that. The only thought is i do feel like a maid sometimes, there are endless things to do and it comes one after another, be it baby stuffs or household chores. It seems like eternity. Body seems to be struggling to work hard for the family and i wonder when will i drain out all my energy. Secondly, staying at home makes me like the world is only hubby, baby and me. Gosh, i feel so outcasted from the outside world. Now i know why SAHM 是伟大的!

I need some air all by myself one of these days..

Update again~

Im back again!

Baby's sleeping, hubby went to work and i just bathed out, so managed to find time to update my blog. :)

A short update of Elyse here:
She now weighs 6.7kg at her 3 and quarter months. She is slightly overweight at 90 percentile as what the PD said. But it is ok, as long as we give her normal feed and she is growing well, there is nothing to worry about. :) Initially, i am still worried if she is feeding enough as i have only latched her on for 8-15mins each time and not able to gauge how much she actully took. Now, she started to take expressed milk almost in her every feed after i started work. She drinks between 70ml - 120ml at each feed, at about 7 times a day. PD says the volume is ok. So happy and relieved to hear that. I think i will continue to give her expressed milk when i stopped working, at least i won't get paranoid if she is hungry whenever she cries. =D

(Baby half awake, heard her sucking thumb, went to feed her before i return to continue my blog)

She took 120ml expressed milk tonight, hehe..am going to bed very soon after i finished updating. Let me briefly update my weekend.

Sat:
Had breakfast with hubby at home. Hubby went out to work.
Bathed baby, feed her milk, tuck her to bed
Put our laundry to wash, handwashed baby's laundry, iron clothes, quick wipe of a window, wipe the floor.
Prepared and had lunch with hubby.
Baby awakes and talk to her for about an hour b4 she is fed and asleep again.
Out to Chinatown point to run errand and for dinner, short walk at Robertson Walk.
(Believe me, carrying 6.7kg around is no fun!)
Car-drive around Buona Vista see see look look around the area.
Home Sweet Home

Sun:
Went to Boon Lay for prata breakfast with hubby. Little one sleeping on my arms. (Didn't take stroller since it will be a eat & go)
Go back home bathe baby. Feed her and tuck her to bed.
Prepare fish porridge and had lunch with hubby.
Handwashed baby clothes. Hubby out for work.
Prepare dinner and had dinner with hubby.
Went Jurong Point for a short walk.
That ends the day with my blogging here!

I enjoyed my weekend with hubby and baby elyse. She is always with us wherever we go. Who says you cannot patoh when you have a baby??? Its an additional joy to us although it can be tiring bringing her around. =)

This is the quality life i've always wanted. =)

Stop blogging?

First entry for Year 2011!

Well, i am considering to stop my blog, as i find that i have simply nothing much to update, or rather lazy to turn on my pc and sit down for that few minutes to update my blog. What do you think?

Perhaps a quick update for the blog here.

My lovely girl, Elyse Lim was born on 18 Nov 2010, weighing only 2.36kg at her 37th week. She is now into her 3rd month, weighing at 4.89kg, height 54.6cm from our last checkup. She is really a dear to us even though we have been a slave for her feeds, diaper changes, bathes and the sleepless nights. Catch up more on her photos via my facebook!

Things are all going well as i can feel a great bonding between baby and myself by looking after her all by myself and of cause with the help of my dear hubby too. Going back to work at the end of Feb, so soon! How i wish i can be a SAHM! Have the intention of quitting liao, so we shall see yeah? hehe..

Till then, if i am still blogging.. =)

10th Anniversary

Today marks the 10th Anniversary of knowing my hubby.

He has been a great boyfriend and hubby til now. I still love him to the bits! hehe..

Hope our relationship maintain this way til we both grow old together..

Happy 10th Year Anniversary, BB! =D

Philosophy of life

Philosophy of life

A boat docked in a tiny Mexican fishing village. A tourist complimented the local fishermen on the quality of their fish and asked how long it took him to catch them.

"Not very long." they answered in unison.

Tourist: "Why didn't you stay out longer and catch more?"

The fishermen explained that their small catches were sufficient to meet their needs and those of their families.

Tourist: "But what do you do with the rest of your time?"

Fishermen: "We sleep late, fish a little, play with our children.... In the evenings, we go into the village to see our friends, have a few drinks, play the guitar, and sing a few songs. We have a full life."

The tourist interrupted, "I have an MBA from Harvard and I can help you!
You should start by fishing longer every day. You can then sell the extra fish you catch. With the extra revenue, you can buy a bigger boat."

Fishermen: "And after that?"

Tourist: "With the extra money the larger boat will bring, you can buy a second one and a third one and so on until you have an entire fleet of trawlers. Instead of selling your fish to a middle man, you can then negotiate directly with the processing plants and maybe even open your own plant. You can then leave this little village and move to Mexico City , Los Angeles , or even New York City ! From there you can direct your huge new enterprise."

Fishermen: "How long would that take?"

"Twenty, perhaps twenty-five years." replied the tourist.

Fishermen: "And after that?"

"Afterwards? Well my friend, that's when it gets really interesting, " answered the tourist, laughing. "When your business gets really big, you can start buying and selling stocks and make millions!"

Fishermen: "Millions? Really? And after that?" asked the fishermen.

"After that you'll be able to retire, live in a tiny village near the coast, sleep late, play with your children, catch a few fish, and spend your evenings drinking and enjoying your friends."

"With all due respect sir, but that's exactly what we are doing now. So what's the point of wasting twenty-five years?" asked the fishermen.

And the moral of this story is:
Know where you're going in life, you may already be there! Be contented!

What a world~

Tongues wag everywhere.

Why do people likes to talk behind others?
Aren't they tired talking bad behind others?
Does talking behind people gives you great satisfaction and makes your day good?
Don't you ever think you aren't perfect and no one is perfect too?

When it is time to work, strive.
When it is time for joy, cheers.
Everyone has different timing to strive and to cheers,
Give and take, accept and returns.

Being a child is a blessing, but being an adult is complicating.

Believe in Karma.

This too will pass

Once a king called upon all of his wise men and asked them,

" Is there a mantra or suggestion which works in every situation, in every circumstances, in every place and in every time. Something which can help me when none of you is available to advise me. Tell me is there any mantra?"

All wise men got puzzled by King's question. One answer for all question? Something that works everywhere, in every situation? In every joy, every sorrow, every defeat and every victory? They thought and thought. After a lengthy discussion, an old man suggested something which appeal to all of them. They went to king and gave him something written on a paper. But the condition was that king was not to see it out of curiosity. Only in extreme danger, when the King finds himself alone and there seems to be no way, only then he'll have to see it. The King put the paper under his Diamond ring.

After a few days, the neighbors attack the Kingdom. It was a collective surprise attack of King's enemies. King and his army fought bravely but lost the battle. King had to fled on his horse. The enemies were following him. His horse took him far away in Jungle. He could hear many troops of horses were following him and the noise was coming closer and closer. Suddenly the King found himself standing in the end of the road - that road was not going anywhere. Underneath there was a rocky valley thousand feet deep. If he jumped into it, he would be finished…and he could not return because it was a small road…From back the sound of enemy's horses was approaching fast. King became restless. There seemed to be no way.

Then suddenly he saw the Diamond in his ring shining in the sun, and he remembered the message hidden in the ring. He opened the diamond and read the message.

The message was - " This too will pass."

The King read it . Again read it. Suddenly something strike in his mind- Yes ! it too will pass. Only a few days ago, I was enjoying my kingdom. I was the mightiest of all the Kings. Yet today, the Kingdom and all his pleasures have gone. I am here trying to escape from enemies. However when those days of luxuries have gone, this day of danger too will pass. A calm come on his face. He kept standing there. The place where he was standing was full of natural beauty. He had never known that such a beautiful place was also a part of his Kingdom. The revelation of message had a great effect on him. He relaxed and forget about those following him. After a few minute he realized that the noise of the horses and the enemy coming was receding. They moved into some other part of the mountains and were not on that path.

The King was very brave. He reorganized his army and fought again. He defeated the enemy and regain his lost empire. When he returned to his empire after victory, he was received with much fan fare at the door. The whole capital was rejoicing in the victory. Everyone was in a festive mood. Flowers were being thrown on King from every house, from every corner. People were dancing and singing. For a moment King said to himself," I am one of the bravest and greatest King. It is not easy to defeat me.: With all the reception and celebration he saw an ego emerging in him.

Suddenly the diamond of his ring flashed in the sunlight and reminded him of the message. He open it and read it again: "This too will pass"

He became silent. His face went through a total change -from the egoist he moved to a state of utter humbleness.

If this too is going to pass, it is not yours.
The defeat was not yours, the victory is not yours.
You are just a watcher. Everything passes by

We are witness of all this. We are the perceiver. Life come and go. Happiness come and go. Sorrow come and go.

Now as you have read this story, just sit silently and evaluate your own life. This too will pass. Think of the moments of joy and victory in your life. Think of the moment of Sorrow and defeat. Are they permanent ? They all come and pass away. Life just passes away.

There were friends in past. They all have gone.
There are friends today. They too will go.
There will be new friends tomorrow. They too will go.

There were enemies in past. They have gone.
There may be enemy in present. They too will go.
There will be new enemies tomorrow and......they too will go.

There is nothing permanent in this world. Everything changes except the law of change. Think over it from your own perspective. You have seen all the changes. You have survived all setbacks , all defeats and all sorrows. All have passed away. If there are problems in the present, they too will pass away. Because nothing remains forever. Joy and sorrow are the two faces of the same coin. They both will pass away. Who are you in reality? Know your real face. Your face is not your true face. It will change with the time. However, there is something in you, which will not change. It will remain unchanged. What is that unchangeable ? It is nothing but your true self.

You are just a witness of change. Experience it, understand it.