Grumble again~

Just getting sick of the job here: bits and pieces, paper work, no system, too extra work system, everyone clears leave end of year = find no one for advise = anything wrong, you are responsible. Actually one of the prof really enlightens me while we are in a meeting few weeks ago, he has mentioned something like we spend alot of time and effort for the programme, but never get to see any return or benefit/incentives to our ownself, that is something not right. I think i get what he means. It just doesn't pay to be good, no one seems to appreciate our work. Why do we still strive so hard? Perhaps this is why many of us wanted to start our own business. You really reap what you sow.

I have updated my resume weeks ago and started to send out through online agencies, ought to look through Classified. Hope to get a job that can make me commit. My current working desk are filled with papers, no personal belongings here, simply a 3cm by 3cm colour printed photo of hubby and myself, and my drinking cup at one corner - 'cos i know i will not stay for long. I will give myself another 3 months, just 3 months...hopefully....

Bored~

Oh, realised i haven't been blogging for awhile. Was kind of bored at work today, therefore went through all my previous posts, and began to realise that most of my posts are filled with grumbiness. Well, that is my motive of writing a blog, an online diary. But doesn't seems very right at times, do human beings have a better brain to remember unhappiness as compared to the happy moments they once had? This question just came across my mind, maybe someone out there can clear my doubt.

*Prof came to discuss something on a seminar event, i have lost the feeling to continue. Hmmpf...shall continue when i got back the feeling..

A very short vacation

4D, anyone?

Condolences

Looks like i often have the mood to blog only during the late days of the week. Yes, it's another friday here. Gets so tired on this friday, somehow. Hubby's aunt passed away on Wednesday midnight. Attended her funeral at havelock road last night. We have visited her in hospital days before as she had a swollen and painful hand which we thought it was only an old ailment for the aged. She was still able to talk, joke and move about in her bed. Never did we know that she was warded to ICU just days after we visited her. Everything was so sudden. She was not her usual self anymore, tubes and needles, supporting system were all over her. Her eyes were closed, breathing was difficult, body were not moving, only seems to be nodding her head when we greeted her. 2 days after ICU, we were informed that she cannot pull through anymore. The tubes will be removed, supporting system will be switched off. Their families may have their last words to her. She can only hear but not able to response. We were told that tears flow from Aunt's eyes. She had moved to another paradise.

Life is so fragile, once you lost it, its lost forever. I truly believe do or say what you want to your loved ones. You may hear the last words to you on your death bed, but you are not able to give them your last words before you go. Cherish your every second. Life is precious.

I wish Aunt rest in peace, may she be happy in her world of paradise.

Moody Friday

What a moody friday. I thought i am suppose to be happy receiving the weekend, but no, i can't find that feeling right now, why uh? I guess perhaps it's due to work again. Have 1 or 2 seminars to settle, 1 programme to arrange. Doesn't seems alot but after all the events, i would need to clear the shits. It can be interesting working on events but there are too many adhoc things to consider. Getting course outline from lecturers, applying subsidy from company, sending out flyers, receiving applications, getting notes from lecturers, printing of notes for participants, booking of venue, catering, informing students on change of venue, compiling attendance list, receive payment, reimburse subsidy, printing of certificates, send for signatory and finally send out to participants. phew..interesting job but this is not the only jobscope, have to work concurrently with other task given. Sigh...

I woke up at 5.30am today, all mind thinking about the work i need to do today while lying on the bed. GoSh, Grandpa Zhou doesn't allow me to play chess with him until my alarm sounds. Luckily i slept at 11pm day before, else i would be in my dreamland while blogging here, hehe...

Hmm..i miss my primary and secondary school days. No $ worries, no family worries, no work worries, everything went just so smoothly during the school days. No wonder our parents always tell us that school life is always the best, we should be happy and glad that we are still studying. You will only come to understand them when you are a working adult. Yes, i love my family.

Bus....

Compared to people going to town area, i may be lucky enough that i am working near my home. Just take a 15mins bus ride and i can reach my workplace. Dislike working in town area 'cos you will have to squeeze and endure the pushing from other commuters during peak hours. Not to mention about lunch hours in town area, you can hardly find a seat to satisfy your hunger. Those are the reasons why i prefer working at tuas or unpopular job locations like tuas or somewhere seems "remote" for others.

As mentioned above, i just need to take a bus to reach workplace. All the while, i took a 15mins walk to interchange to catch bus 179. For those who took buses from interchange near the bus 179 stand, you would know that the queue is never-ending. Fyi, bus 179 stand is at the very end of boon lay interchange, the queue stretches all the way to mrt station! I can't see where it ends, as i have already given up looking for my queue halfway through.

Ok fine, i'm glad hubby notice another stop near our home that i can board, bus 199 (ok, this bus in interchange too, but i always thought it takes longer hour to reach). Took 10mins walk to this bus stop, and was happy there were always seats for me. Happily tried for few days and am glad that hubby discover this stop, hehe..But my nightmare comes soon after! The bus becomes crowded whenever i board at the same timing or even earlier. Urghh..You can witness 2-3 buses passby in front of you due to the crowds in the bus. Testing my patience! Sigh..I don't mind standing in the crowd 'cos it took only 10-15mins to reach workplace but it doesnt feel comfortable especially when i have my AF or feeling weak!! Sobz.. Can we have more buses to cater for the crowds please...sobz..or rather having free shuttle buses for employee to reach their workplace, hehe..('cos my prev company cater free bus for us to pioneer sector even though the public bus stops directly outside the company only leh, hehehe..)

Well, enough of my lamenting, just wishing for an impossible here, haa..get back to work, tommorrow's friday! Jiayou !!!

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